a ReaLLy disappointing bdae...

haiz...today is my bdae and i am really looking forward to my frens helping me celebrate...or if not...at least a birthday wish or something...ever since after 21st bdae...nobody cares about whether it is ur bdae or not...i am really so disappointed in them...the ones i trusted and liked so much...which is my sec sch grp of frens...i really tot i am part of them but now...i realised...it isint wat it appeared to be...like this is all i cheat myself...i do not think that my frens will buy any presentd this yr cos i noe that they are not celebrating ppl's bdae anymore but the very least they could just send me a bdae wish but NO!!!ironically...it is all those whom i am not really close with that wish me happy bdae...even those that i had not been in contact for long...i really feel like crying...i noe i am a very shy person and seldom interact with ppl...but atleast i tot sr and emay and py are my those better girl friends but i guess i am wrong abt all this...like my mum says...friendship really nv last...i tot they will at least wish me but no...i waited all day..waiting for smses...not my other frens sms but their sms...can u believe it?of all my sec sch fren...onli 2 guys BOTHER to msg me...and guess wat...emay even said...paiseh thay she forgot my bdae cos she was so busy...i think it was no excuse...i think they dun care anymore...thats wat chinese says...重色轻友...now i really get wat it realli means...sob :( there goes our 9 yrs of frenship i guess..down the drain....if u say i am a little petty...well...i guess i am a bit...but thats really the minimum u could do for a fren...which is to remb their bdae...for me...i dun forget ppl bdae..even if i do...i will use some alert to remind myself which shows i care but even of i care...they dun care abt me...wats the pt then?the onli happy thing that i have abt today is my mum actually took the effort to buy me a small cake...at least there's someone to celebrate for me...kinship is really better than friendship...i am really losing heart心灰意冷... abt my grp of wat we call gd frens....even my working frens are better than them...i am supposed to have mock exams tomorrow and i am suppose to study during my bdae...thats doesnt really matters...though i am to stay home and not go out enjoy myself...it is my frens that really makes me sad...i really do care and treasure this friendship...but...in the end...thats wat i get in return...i really xian mu those ppl whom have really gd frens...but i guess i am the unlucky one...not to have met 1...if they really do remb...i guess it will be after today...and they will say belated...but thats not the same as wishing on the day itself...such a disappointment...i guess its time to get back to my studies...jia you!u can do it...even without frens...family is just those who really cares for u...a really disppointing 22nd bdae... :(